GITW is being curated to share writings, ramblings, rants, and life stories; Where I'm headed, where I've been, and what I'm learning in the great in-between.
I am nothing less than an insanely and exponentially complex explosion of unknown variables, miracles, physics, chemistry, cosmic destiny, quantum chaos and entanglement, chance and energy in a perpetually recalculated mathematical realization of self in constant creation, entropy, and decay... housing a spirit and consciousness.
Created from the on going expansion and self actualization of an initial universal singularity and divine consciousness.
I was never going to be what my parents hoped or expected. Even at my best, true full potential. And my being should bare no burden of their thoughts and feeling, or expectations met or otherwise.
Not anyone's else's hopes or expectations, thoughts or feelings either, for that matter!
I am, myself, a core being, and only what I was intended to be at the creation of this existence. Perfect and flawed.
NOT their grasp of it OR oblivious lack there of
...but also, sadly, directly molded/formed by and acted upon by any and all outside forces of influence and interaction.
No matter how big or small. It erodes or builds up, damages or strengthens, distorts or clarifies. But never created of outside from itself, only ever fueled or starved.
I am stardust and electricity, uniformed chaos; coded in my DNA is both the Infinite and temporary. A manifestation of life and consciousness itself. One in 400 quadrillion(probability of existing) and 7¹⁰ of 10⁸⁰(atoms in the body/atoms in the known universe.)
I am therefore I think. And I think therefore I can acknowledge that I am.
And as Popeye the sailor says...
"I yam what I yam and that's all what I yam,"